Louise tells the group she hates her body and she has had spinal surgery for scoliosis.
KBW “You may have received an early dose of hate in the first 3 months of life. You felt that you were unlovable and unwanted. At times you felt, ‘what’s the use; why even go on,’ a sense of not belonging, not fitting in. Some people who receive this wound are very spiritual. Are you ? “
L “Yes, I am.“
“KBW “You also tend to detach from what is happening around you. Do you tune out some of the time?”
L “Yes, I do.”
KBW “Your chest (boney with ribs that stick out) signals early deprivation, abandonment, and a tendency toward depression. Your parenting figures may not have supported you.” “The collapse in your arches indicate feeling unsafe and not standing up for yourself. “
L “My defense is to prove the opposite, that I can take of myself.”
KBW “By standing with your feet wide apart, you’re making an effort to ground and receive support from Mother Earth. But by spacing your legs and feet far apart, your energy dissipates and spreads out into the environment, so that it no longer serves you.”
KBW “The scoliosis in your spine shows that you came into this world you with a powerful personality. Your family couldn’t handle your power, so you had to squash it. Squashed the power twisted your spine, leading to scoliosis.”
KBW “You are a very strong person, for even with this wound, you seem to function well.
KBW “I suggest you work on your anger (when the young child or infant receives hate, she mirrors it back to the world in the form of suppressed anger or hate.) Once you release it, you will be free to develop your femininity, your soft side. Although your body has not filled with feminine softness, you are moving in that direction, learning how to receive.
KBW “With this wound, it is important to explore your life purpose and to make a full commitment to life.”
L “I exist and I fight back. I am a life coach and I am active in politics.”
KBW “What do you want for yourself? “
L “I want love, but I don’t know how to get it.”
KBW “You must open your heart, but that goes hand and hand with getting out your anger.”
We end when I ask her to open her arms toward the group of people who are observing the reading and embrace them and receive their loving feelings. Many of whom come up and hug her.